when i look at the mirror
i really cant believe that me
not only appearance change but my everything
i feel so hard to accept but i knw
there's no way to look back anymore ..
i can no longer live my life like i had in the past
i really miss those days so much
sometime i think of running away...
away from my responsiblities .. my duty .. my burden
i had too much things on my shoulder ..
now i have to look for job .. look for nanny ..
still have to worry abt my financial ..
worry abt my mother .. remind her stuffs ..
help her go pay bills den i still need to take care of caleb
too much for me ..
i still have my dreams to acheive
when will my dreams come true ..
haix .. today caleb had his second injection ..
i was shocked by the needle .. so long and thick
caleb cried his lung out man ..
i think he got a fright frm the injection
cause for the whole day he cant get to slp
and cried out for no reason .. lol ..
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Monday, March 22, 2010
His growing up journey
caleb is 1mth plus le ..
he is trying to learn to flip
and he is getting more and more chubby ..
hahaha
especially his face is getting more bao !!
he is very hard to carry nowaday
he likes to struggle alot
and my relative say is because
i ate too much crab during my prenancy ..
he is also very bad temper ..
he is just like me !! hahah
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
My Birth Story
i had a smooth pregnancy
EXCEPT i had hypertension in the end term
but everything come out to be fine ..
07022010
here come the day
i wake up in the morning about 6am
feeling abit not right
at that time i still nv encounter any pain
i went to the toilet
but nothing abnormal ..
so i went back to lie..
but after awhile i feel abit of cramp
so i called my friend Lifen
telling her that i maybe giving birth ..
after awhile i went to the toilet again
and now i can comfirm
my boy is coming
so i called Lifen and Garvin to tell them
i went to bath
and Lifen came to pick me up and we headed to Thomson Hospital
when we reach the hospital .. i feel it still early for labour
so i ask Lifen to go buy some food to eat
LOL ...
we sit down at the near main gate sofa
ate my bread .. slack slack .. den slwly walk to the registion counter
i was send to the waiting ward to check
and comfirm i was 1cm dilated
i was like stress .. only 1cm !!
I went to change den they insert one medicine that make me go toilet de
den insert drip to fasten the dilation ..
and i was push to the delivery ward to wait
on the tv in the delivery suite ..
i still remember i was watching "The Guess Show" hahah
and talking to Lifen
they continue to check my dilation **i Hate It**
at abt 10am .. they told me i only dilated to 1.5cm only
i was like GOSH .. cause i already can feel the pain getting worst
i asked for the laughing gas .. in case i cannot take it
but as time past .. the gas doesnt do any help
at abt 12 i asked for epidural ..
so the doc came to help me
i still rem i was shouting not because of pain but scare
LOL .. **actually its hurt a little**
they asked me to wait for half and hour for the effect to come ..
while waiting .. Lifen was eating her bread ..
feel a little bit hungry .. so asked the nurse if i can eat
"NO"
den i asked if i can go to the toilet ..
also "NO"
Finally i asked for a cup of water ..
"YES" so i drink a little :):)
more than half and hour ..
the effect still not here yet ..
so called the nurses ..
they add one more dose of epidural
asked me to wait for fifteen min ..
but in the end still no use
so they called the doc down to check
and the doc say maybe nv kanna the nerve
so asked me if i still want to inject one more time
at that time .. the pain was unbearable
so i said YES YES
because at tat time .. abt 4plus i only dilated 3.5cm
and than i was asked to wait for another half and hour
to my disappointment .. still no use
so my gyne suggested to go for caesarean
i agreed with it ..
i was pushed to the operation room ..
the funny thing is im not scare at all
maybe i knw there are alot of ppls supporting me outside ..
all my cellgrp members has been waiting outside since 12 plus i think ..
even though im in pain inside ..
knwing tat they are there .. really strengthen me ..
the next thing i knw is falling aslp .. when i wake up
everything is over le
they push me to my ward
and there all my family and cellgrp members
so many of them that the room is overflooded ..
i still remember the first thing i asked them is "have u guys seen the bb"
"Got hair or not " hahaha
cause i had too much instant noodles during my pregnancy
scare my son hair drop .. LOL
after awhile .. they pushed bb caleb to me ..
i was like .. wah .. really my son or not
so much hair !!!
hahah .. still cant believe.. he is out le
he is so cute ..
wow .. what a great thing i have done !!
**a little joke**
when my mum and some of my cg members were standing outside the bb room
they were guessing which one is my son ..
den they saw this bb ..
so active .. kicking his hand and leg while other were lying quietly
the first thought of them is this comfirm not my bb
my mum was saying .. wah .. wat a gasiao kinna ..
hahahha ..
and it turns out to be him .. my son .. caleb lee ..
CALEB WELCOME TO THIS WORLD :>
EXCEPT i had hypertension in the end term
but everything come out to be fine ..
07022010
here come the day
i wake up in the morning about 6am
feeling abit not right
at that time i still nv encounter any pain
i went to the toilet
but nothing abnormal ..
so i went back to lie..
but after awhile i feel abit of cramp
so i called my friend Lifen
telling her that i maybe giving birth ..
after awhile i went to the toilet again
and now i can comfirm
my boy is coming
so i called Lifen and Garvin to tell them
i went to bath
and Lifen came to pick me up and we headed to Thomson Hospital
when we reach the hospital .. i feel it still early for labour
so i ask Lifen to go buy some food to eat
LOL ...
we sit down at the near main gate sofa
ate my bread .. slack slack .. den slwly walk to the registion counter
i was send to the waiting ward to check
and comfirm i was 1cm dilated
i was like stress .. only 1cm !!
I went to change den they insert one medicine that make me go toilet de
den insert drip to fasten the dilation ..
and i was push to the delivery ward to wait
on the tv in the delivery suite ..
i still remember i was watching "The Guess Show" hahah
and talking to Lifen
they continue to check my dilation **i Hate It**
at abt 10am .. they told me i only dilated to 1.5cm only
i was like GOSH .. cause i already can feel the pain getting worst
i asked for the laughing gas .. in case i cannot take it
but as time past .. the gas doesnt do any help
at abt 12 i asked for epidural ..
so the doc came to help me
i still rem i was shouting not because of pain but scare
LOL .. **actually its hurt a little**
they asked me to wait for half and hour for the effect to come ..
while waiting .. Lifen was eating her bread ..
feel a little bit hungry .. so asked the nurse if i can eat
"NO"
den i asked if i can go to the toilet ..
also "NO"
Finally i asked for a cup of water ..
"YES" so i drink a little :):)
more than half and hour ..
the effect still not here yet ..
so called the nurses ..
they add one more dose of epidural
asked me to wait for fifteen min ..
but in the end still no use
so they called the doc down to check
and the doc say maybe nv kanna the nerve
so asked me if i still want to inject one more time
at that time .. the pain was unbearable
so i said YES YES
because at tat time .. abt 4plus i only dilated 3.5cm
and than i was asked to wait for another half and hour
to my disappointment .. still no use
so my gyne suggested to go for caesarean
i agreed with it ..
i was pushed to the operation room ..
the funny thing is im not scare at all
maybe i knw there are alot of ppls supporting me outside ..
all my cellgrp members has been waiting outside since 12 plus i think ..
even though im in pain inside ..
knwing tat they are there .. really strengthen me ..
the next thing i knw is falling aslp .. when i wake up
everything is over le
they push me to my ward
and there all my family and cellgrp members
so many of them that the room is overflooded ..
i still remember the first thing i asked them is "have u guys seen the bb"
"Got hair or not " hahaha
cause i had too much instant noodles during my pregnancy
scare my son hair drop .. LOL
after awhile .. they pushed bb caleb to me ..
i was like .. wah .. really my son or not
so much hair !!!
hahah .. still cant believe.. he is out le
he is so cute ..
wow .. what a great thing i have done !!
**a little joke**
when my mum and some of my cg members were standing outside the bb room
they were guessing which one is my son ..
den they saw this bb ..
so active .. kicking his hand and leg while other were lying quietly
the first thought of them is this comfirm not my bb
my mum was saying .. wah .. wat a gasiao kinna ..
hahahha ..
and it turns out to be him .. my son .. caleb lee ..
CALEB WELCOME TO THIS WORLD :>
Thursday, March 04, 2010
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