today i did something that i regret so much
i slap caleb on the hand
i think that slap was really hard
because caleb hand was red and he was crying
at that time i was out of control ..
i must be crazy to lose my temper on him
he did nothing wrong and he dunno anything
why did i do that to him
im sorry my lil precious ..
life was really very hard for me
other den taking care of caleb
there's nothing else i can do
im like wasting my life away
im hoping to do more for my career
do more for my God
do more for my family
do more for my cellgrp
do more for my friends
do more for my caleb
yet the more i want to do
the more i feel so helpless and useless
everyone is acheving another level
im still struggling ..
im hidding all my feelings
maybe one day i will explore
and go crazy
haix ..
