what is ahead of me

this whole week prelim really so stressful
having insomia almost every night now
im feeling so tired !!!
i just have to go through this period of time
i knw very well what is ahead of me
next yr will be a tough time for me
study ... working ... taking care my lil precious
i even have to worry abt financial problem
bb expenses .. school fee .. daily expenses ..
headache man !!
at one point i am so excited for my lil precious to come
but another point i am so worry too ..
now i think all i can do is walk by faith
only by faith
i really dun dare to think abt wat will be happening
i really dun dare to plan my future ..
maybe this is the time my faith will be tested
but i believe !!!
i miss my life ...
ever since i have my lil precious ..
i have been feeling so tired
and plus my prelim and o level ..
im even more tired !!
other den go to sch .. study .. resting ..
there seem nothing else i can do ..
i hope i can more energy
i hope i can be stronger ..
haix .....

done with my english paper

yesterday whole night insomia
i think it was because i am too stress for the english paper
true enough ... paper 1 i got not enough time to finish ..
den paper 2 was so difficult ..
gone gone gone ..
and since yesterday i was having a terrible headache ..
ate panadol but doesnt seem to work on me
today was a terrible day for me
yippee on the 29 sept can see my lil precious ..
i always looking forward to the scanning ..
that time my lil precious was moving up and down ..
so cute nah !!!
i think this time he was much more bigger and even more cuter !!!
hahaha
cant wait to see him !!
i feel my lil precious was so blessed
so many ppls dote on him and are waiting for his arrival ..
and because of my lil precious, i was also being taken care of ..
baby baby do u knw u are very 幸福...
alot of ppls wanna to take care of u and carry u go shopping ..
hahhaha ..
those uncle and aunt ..
wahahahahaha ......
i was so lucky to have so many ppls to support me
i knw without their support ..
i would nv be able to come this far ..
thanks alot friends ...

ｔｈｅ ｈａｐｐｉｎｅｓｓ

went to check up at KK..
heard my lil precious heartbeats ..
at first .. the doc cant find his heartbeats..
i was really so worried ..
but at last .. the doc spot him ..
my lil precious was hiding at the left corner ..
recently now i can feel his movement ..
my lil precious was so active at night
oh gosh .. i hope he will change his habit when he is born
my lil precious is so 幸福...
so many ppls care and waiting for him to come to this world
at one hand i feel so excited
but another hand i feel so scare
THE PAIN ..
now i finally understand 妈妈真是伟大
i love my mummy so much ..
now when i look at the mirror ..
i really cant believe thats me
i am so ugly now ... like a aunt !!
but wat to do !! :(
until now i still cant change my slping position
still lying flat on my stomach ..
and my favour food is still instant noodles ..
how how how .. can i just dun care abt it
today i was so sick ..
down with flu for abt a week since last wed
AND my prelim is this fri
oh gosh !!!
but in this critical time ..
i look upon GOD for healing ..
wahhahaha .. no scare no scare ..
i was so blessed in this two weeks
firstly my mum bought me a necklace as a present for my baptism
den my aunt bought me another necklace too ..
so i ended up with two cross necklaces..
and my mum knw that i was crazy for the latest iphone 3GS ..
so she blessed me with the money to buy one ..
but too bad the phone is out of stock now ..
really thks GOD for all the financial blessing !!:)

Life is abt process not motion

there are lots of things i have to learn
i think the first thing i have to learn is
how to take wat ppl say
and how ppl will look at me
hahah .. i really need a strong heart
to deal with all this

ThIS Is WaT FriEndS ArE fOr

life has been a big change for me
things were not the same anymore
i have to start to think for my future
planning the way i should go
i cannot be who i am in the past
but face my future with courage
i knw i have to be strong
i knw there will be lots of obstacles to cross
i knw the responsibilities i have to bear
i knw the burdens i have to carry
i knw the emotional feeling i have to struggle
but most of all
i knw GOD is here to carry for me
i may have worries, fear, bitterness or even hatred
but i knw GOD is here
people may let me down .. but GOD will nv disappoint me
i believe there is miracles

i really thanks my friends who are here for me all this while
Lifen, Ivan, Yiyong, Drew, Mengqiao, Yixin, Daryl, Yiling ..
without their support .. i will not be able to survive
life is not that bad overall
there are beautiful things, people and memories
i knw .. my friends will support and love me till the end
they will nv leave me alone ..
i am so blessed afterall ...

i thought we could really start a family of our own
i thought u would love me till the end
i thought u would nv leave me as u say
but this were just mine thoughts
i think of a millions of ways to seek revenge
cause i really hate u
but now i just want to let u go
let go of u and also let go of me
i am really tired of hating u
goodbye my love ..
i know i will survive without u ..
and i will be happy without u